its not the first time :)

concentration and focus i set on goals are very empty.
sometimes i feel so invisible and sometimes i feel like eveyone is staring at me.
I've been busy with productive stuff and i just hope that all turns out right.
I'm really tired of disappointment. Then again, how can blame the world right?

Oh ya! haha.. the video in the previous post bout that eminem thing is really funny! but cant be played here though...hmmm
anyway, i've written alot of notes on my planner and i'm feeling less worked up now.
But i still feel theres so much uncertainty yet it seems like i have said it all.

Effort.
This word jogs up alot of memories and links :o
Hahahahaha! k, gtg already.
"Please ? to me and i will . Please don't ? then !!! x3 and i'll be like ????"
get it? hahahahahahahahaha
cherio! x]

(oh n btw, i think i support Portugal. ) hohohoho

Eminem teaches Jimmy Kimmel how to rap (Full)

okay.... so there seems to be a problem playing it. SO SEARCH ON YOUTUBE :)))
it's sooooo funny.. haha .. for awhile :)

DRIFT-THINKER

I am so fat! coz of the non-stop eating these few days...
I have to b more wise in making choices from now! HAHA
I've done some homework. Caught up on some cool movies.
I get quite pissed easily recently..so i remind myself bout the 3 principles of AWESOMEness:

1. Be nice
2. Be good
3. Be happy

Yesyes~ HAHAHA
so i've been hving weird dreams lately but life's been fun at the same time.
Really cool overall, but i still can't get over some stuff.
Told myself to move on anyway! heehee..
Did i mention i tend to FORGET but not FORGIVE?
so i'll hate someone but can't remember the reason..... yeaaa
MY memory is SUPER OFF lately..for some reasons

Hmmm...i guess i gotta go^^
hehehe! what else's up will not be told here any further.
Except the fact i've been getting loads of sweeeeet movies and tracks.
Also, following the newly released MV's whenever i can! hahaha... that's nice!
Have been reading alot too...mmhmm

right! time to sign off,
Jiayin :]

PLAYING WITH PLASTERS ON

today did cover of 'billionaire' by travis McCoy n bruno Mars.
quite fun la.... i got to know zoey better! haha
had guest at home today so kinda awkward/unexpected but totally COOL

i hate that guy who commented stupid extra brainless dummy shit.
and from his profile picture, i get the impression that he's a real ass. i know i know, who am i to judge right away right? But seriously....that idiotic character potrayed from his imbecile comment. IT'S FRICKED UP.

whatever, hahahaha! OKOK, today was really fun and i ate alot! HAHA!
finally caught up w glee...so darn touching maaaan .... wasaaaayy :')
heehee

If you ask me, i think i do know what i'm doing.
In fact, i've got stuff planned out perfectly. I cldnt hv done it w the help from my friends and family of course... I LUV YA! <3<3<3
"see yall soon aiight?" w THE swagger slang aha!
XOXO

Incomplete & Forgetful

there's always this irritating barrier.
have i mentioned how much i detest those people who judge you as if they know you?
damn! so pissed and..and fed up!! i don't understand how people can be bored. i have like tons of tasks waiting to be completed. And they can sleep for, what.. 12 HOURS?? i'm glad i get 8 hours and even so i always get waken up an hour early by.. something!! you know what? i keep saying i'm happy. But i'm just..not so clear of stuff happening to me. So i just take it in my stride and get on with work. EVERYTHING SEEMS SO DIFFICULT.

nvm... i feel like i'm no longer living for myself.
this life, i cant say i'm unlucky or cursed or whatever.. but....it's so worrying!
i dunno, i keep thinking that things would get better. Sometimes they seem like they do but then all of a sudden shit drops all on you. It's like whatever's going down now..will never be okay.

Its sad. Yet meaningful?
I'm dying here.. i can't be baffled any much more
It's so so SO hard to keep going..

i dun wanna grow up. or do i?

here's the thing. i am very lost but i have a compass. i dunno how to use it but i'm not worried.
there's a clear blue sky above me and its so vast. so i just keep walking but then i start to panic because i'm no doubt alone and a stranger to this place. not even accompanied by a single butterfly or bird. i walk .. i just keep walking.

Okie... i'm starting hw soon. I hope we'v all learnt that we'll just have to grow up sometimes.
I dun want any bad misunderstanding to ruin the greatness of anything.
I'm quite clueless of what i'm saying but at least i feel better when i myself understand it?? yea
AANYWAYS ...hv i mentioned how screwed i am tomorrow? no? alright nvm, i m praying for a better day. Coz i AM changing along the way. Whatever 'way' that is. AAAHHH i think my brain isnt functioning right. I feel soooo different. i dunno, i feel good but i think sometimes its .. yet to be corrected? i dont know. crap!!! I AM SOOO SAD. i really really really hope people wld actually get the whole picture or...like hear the full story before they comment or anything. i mean, i'm sure it wont b nice if you just judge someone over smth that, isnt always that way..or smth?? urgh! CRAP! this is so stressful... ... indeed, the feeling after the science PSLE was probably the best joy i've ever felt and would ever feel untill... maybe like a long LONG LONG blue blue moon time? Haiz... .. .. ..

I'M BAAaaaAAACK! XD

lazy but optimistic.
good evening everyone.

here's what i've been doing lately.

• downloading
• learning more about twitter
• getting freaked out in facebook
• doing research on the broken heart II
• checking out wonders of the world+nothern lights and 'how to' videos
• trying to know my Aino and ipod touch better
• READING so much lately..
• eating so much junk .... eUrgHkk~

here's what i am going to do soon.

• jogging/swimming/bowling/basketball
• try to catch a few YOG+worldcup matches
• *do revision and get homework done
• watch karate kid w mommy ^^
• save money for shopping during year end

here's what i want to do before i pass.

• visit some of the seven wonders of the world + travel around the world
• visit a gibson or fender guitar factory and purchase a custom-made guitar
• complete a painting on buddha
• build my dream house and my very own resort nearby

omg. finally i got myself to log in here n blog ^^ so on wednesday, band ended on time.i waited an hour plus for melissa's ncdcc camp to end but it was fun coz i was talking to bereice for awhile. then i finished up my conclusion hw for my EL tuition. but melissa had to change out of her uniform after her debriefing so it was an anxious waiting period. i thought we would miss Jeanne's arrival coz it was 6.50pm n we've missed 3 bus 14s already. anyway, we got there at 7.15 or so. but we had no idea which terminal or belt she was gonna be at. oh ya! that morning, i checked w the office about their flight no. and got help from mummy to check their exact arrival time. But you know how it tends to get delayed right? so we made it on time in the end. I think it was kinda..FUN? hahahaha really :]

Recently, i am enjoying my sleep coz the dreams are way cooler than the ones i got during school days. BAND will forever be a bitch!!!! maybe you think that weak insult is random/irrelevant but let me tell you.. THOSE BLOODY FAGGOTS are sooooo gonna get payback from the creators of karma oneday. hoof! haha, getting that off was..sorta soothing.

i'm still trying to be nice but eek! some people just don't quit! so annoying.. nevertheless, as long as i'm happy >.<>

I think dat wld b all 4 now. nononowaaait.... i'm planning my birthday party! hahaha! i really hope it'll b successful. 1st n foreMOST gotta get my grades up:] i'll invite so much more people this year. I hope things r in control and its a PARTAAAAYYY! so everyone must enjoy themselves ^^ ohyeahh.......i dun like my tagged photos on facebook...everything shot was shot so suddenly and i cant smile right when i'm shocked. i mean, i want to look gd w my braces on >< OK UNTILL NEXT TIME! yeeepeeedoodaaahh daaaaaayyy!!

need to complete homework

I AM SOOOO UNHEALTHY!
coz of braces ... i seldom eat apples now and coz i'm busy .. meals are so fast
plus PE is so far away and my stamina is like ... bleahhh down down down !!!
i think my arteries are half blocked.. hv a look at this

THIS WEEK

1. haagen daiz icecream small tubs x3
2. ruffles potato chips x 1.5
3. sports x 0
4. chocolate milk x everyday

hahaha .. i never see my friends for soooo long :[ missing them alot :[

I'm fine, so are you :]

we all make mistakes..so it's really okay :]

Joan Osbourne - one of us

what if god was one of us?
just a slob like one of us
just a stranger on the bus
trying to make his way home.

i found out that, bisexual means being attracted to more than one gender :]
while doing research about a broken heart. hahaha
anyway .. sometimes i feel like you're too obsessed but it's not wrong or illegal
but sometimes, i really feel like saying: " who are you and what have you done to my friend? "
hahahaha .. i'm so happy we met xD
kk anyway ... i didn't know it was called bacardi till today :] hahahaha
'go go go go go go go go shawty, it's ya birthday
we gone party like it's ya birthday
we gone sip bacardi like it's ya birthday...'
hahahaa its really cool, this sparkling water thing.
tropical peach.... cooooll HAHAHA

facebook is so difficult nowadays, if you know what i mean.
but can be fun and useful at times heehee x]
alright, nid to go do homework le .... haizz

like OH MY GAAAWD!? 0.0

singapore singapore singapore i luv singapore :)
no matter what .. .. watever

I WANT TO EXPLORE THIS WORLD.
i'm gonna b big someday ya know? :)))
but right now its studies and i'm soooo motivated
but i miss so many people.
jeanne's in taiwan
skye's in japan
chengsuan too
melissa and sophia and amelia :)
its been awhile since we met up durin the holidays :(
aaaaahhh and all those stinking hhw! crap maaann....zzz

BAND SUX SUX SUX LIKE WORST THAN SHIT.
you know??? u know wad? JUST STOP FAKING HIGH CLASS,
i mean DAMN!!!!! seriously...u wanna show th CO and the whole sch bout ur place in band.
AND YOUUUUUU!!!!??? WTF stop acting pissed laaaaaa alamaaaakkkk yooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i can't stand u people laaar walao ehhh .. .. .. ur music v pro ah?? fine, i admire ur talents as well
but FREAKIN STOP ACTING BIG INFRONT OF US......WORST PART...U R TRYING TO SOUND MODEST...WHAT THE SHiiiiiT??? c'mon la faggot!!! i know theres troublesome matters but...tsk! at the end of the day....at least u know SOME poeple really work their ass off okay? don't blame blame blame BLAME BLAME and make it seem like u r oh so misunderstood.. i ordered new tee already so my t-shirt wont keep gettin unticked everytime i walk ... .. see i at doooo care bout attire and bein tidy.. i still try to stuff in the bloody shirt when i run or stand right?? just bcoz....GRRRRRR OMG OMG!!!!!! gv up on u guys maaaan
AND YOU?! okok so mayb ure not that bad n u juz tend to b a person not matured. kk aside aside. BUT YOUUUUU?? u hot temper n u think u cute isit?? wtf?!!! i've put up w alot and i bluffed myself to make peace what i think is war btween us. cant believe yall .. this is NOT over... i juz feel like venting out some awhile...i dun wanna loose my cool over some stupid cca ( actually it's quite gd somehow ) BUT NOOOOO IT STILL SUXZ! UNDERSTAND??!! no u don't .. kayy got stuff to do :)

I LOVE CO.. haha :] their so cute! hahaha!! aaaaaaww xD

glad that at least till now..our friendship has progressed..informal terms >> I LUV U TOO!! haha
thanks to all of yall looking out for me. u've thought me lessons here n there.. (thats what i'm gettin :] haha)
i'm so happy to know ALL OF YOU :]

so i'll continue and carry on :]
untill nxt post :]
stay cheerful ..
i'm gaining alot of weight btw...no surprise lorrr HAHAx..
anywayyyy nobody is perfect so just show some more appreciation to people who care for you once in awhile la..take note :]
i'm show good always wins :]
buddha is such a great teacher xD

PUNCH - this ain't no booze

" fuck the future. " and " it's not about the destination, it's bout the journey. " said by 'Cook' from Skins.
i can't do that. it's just not me. i love living the moment. i can't help but to smile all the time.
you won't change that. we can't deny any of this. this is special, it's fate.
everything would eventually come and go but.. it's the present. RIGHT NOW.
and we need each other :] all of us

so I'M back from OCIP CAMBODIA 2010! it's really awesome. FUN. One of a kind spectacular experience. The 24 of us in this team :] we rock! HAHAHAHA! yup.. This 'thing' we have altogether is like no other and its really .. nice? haha :]
i can't be bothered to even talk about band now... but its just how life is :] and i'm still trying

simply put, i'm not giving up.
never had never will! xD
okok i did try to but in the end... lalala

i really feel so blessed. i mean this can't just be luck ( coz there's always this unfortunately unlucky day ) hehehe xD but at the end of the day. nothing will break us apart.
i'm just so grateful and i'm going to show my appreciation more often (than usual) haha!
wheeeeeeeeeeee!!!! :)))

i'm still lazy. but i choose the right stuff to slack and lag for a bit. so.... wahahaHA!!
i'm so motivated somehow, I AM GOING TO GET A's FROM NOW ON.
STAY HAPPY AND BE NICE/GOOD :))) whooohoooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!

some stuff can be challenging and seem too tough to ever be accomplished,
but we'll always pull through
as long as we have love :]
aaaaawww..... hahahahahaha!

i really enjoy watching GLEE btw :] heheh
kk untill nxt time fellas!
holaahh ~~